Finished my journey on the horse racing...momentarily.

Hi.
This is very intrested part on my blog and on my life the last couple of years...
I love what i do and what i learning on  the the last time but comming the moment when most be thinking for the future.
Option N.1:try to living normally with my wife and my daughter from the salary what i charging from my original professional/waiter/after couple of surgical and the probability problems with the health?
Option N.2:try to living normally with my wife and my daughter from the salary what i charging from the trading job,what on the present it is 0 or worst?
I reading one good articule on the 8 & 9 part/indent of Step 2 Probably im get it here,to stop my attempt because i dont have pacient to doing this job,and i spended lots of money as well.Like to say I learning and practice lots but ALWAYS comming back my bigger problem on my carrier:left to in running with the big ammount-hope to market comming back-no closed the position before countdown 0.

Yesterday wasnt luck,totally my mistake...

Im very tired now to start again this,because im lost the faith on me.Yes i know we are humans and most the peoples doing some errors on the life.But this 100K th. mistake to me and i do not trust on my self.

The other problem the money...I start to reading the money managment,leverage,value of the bankaccount and think about this,when i do the error.                                 

Like say:if i think about this and doing mistake what happens if i just start to use bigger stakes?So not really big problem to answer because im lost all my money and i dont have chance obtain more on the moment...If some people doing similar mistake this is good articule about the history and relaxing and maybe start again!I want just call attention the amatoer traders,punters about this problem,learning for other people mistake it is more"cheaper"...

My bankaccount left 20  €,try to recovery with babysteps,probably greyhound markets.Its is enough for pen to pens.
All the best for all my readers, i dont know what the next step on my life,im little lost now...
Take care,and maybe "see you"later...
 M